||[Jan. 29th, 2010|12:08 pm]
Whole lotta labia.
You know how I sometimes joke about sewing through my finger? Last night, for only the third time in 20 years of sewing, I sewed through my finger. The needle deflected off the nail and just put a good slice across the top of my thumb but it cracked the nail past the quick and bled like a little bitch. I figured that was a sign from the Universe and I went to bed.
Earlier in the evening I'd been so into the movie we were watching that I'd decided on handwork rather than machine work. Good choice for productivity, I made enough progress to finish up Gen's wallhanger tonight, leaving only the binding to do. I'm not sure what to bind it with but I'll find something.
Next up is more work on Chloe's and some scrappy circles. Also I'm doing freemotion practice patches so I can get better before I do the strawberry one. I may just go for loops and swirls, but there are these big white patches... hmmmm.maybe I'll give up and mark the white patches. :D
We're finishing up our round of documentaries, being employed allows me to tolerate fiction again. The selection last night was "I Have Never Forgotten You" about the life and work of Simon Wiesenthal. It was heart rending and very hard to watch. I found the honesty and integrity of his emotion to be really wonderful. Laughing with joy and crying with sorrow and never being overwrought. At some point I had to stop actually watching and just listening to him speak and reading the subtitles. I just couldn't handle the pictures.
I suppose, if I were a better grown-up, I would take the things that break my heart and find a way to make them better. John Wesley's quote "If it has ever been a burden to you, take it up and you shall find it a blessing" has really changed my life in a lot of ways but I just can't take these up. I end up with shaking nightmares and stomach knots. There is a picture, not from this documentary, from a book my mother gave me, that I can't even type up a description for because it makes me so sad. I just want to clutch Chloe to me and rock her and then never let her out of my sight.
Payday today! I will be taking an indulgent trip to Wal-Mart to get markers and hairclips. You know you wanna be me.