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[Nov. 16th, 2004|12:14 pm]
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How is it only Tuesday?

I am tired, broke, unmotivated, dejected, angry, y'know.. that whole range. Plus it's my PMS week and as Caitlin would say "I'd eat dirt if they put enough sugar on it right now." Yeah. Me too. I think, in fact, that I ended up having salted sugar dirt last night. It was fantastic. I ate the whole bowl. *sigh* I'm not motivated enough to do the things I need to but every second that goes by and I don't do them I just feel worse. Blech.

My car is fixed.. totally. I even got them to explain why the check-engine light came on as I was driving home on Friday. *fist of impotent rage*

I spent Saturday at an event up in Pennsylvania. It was so gorgeous up there and I passed a good part of the day sitting in the cabin with a wood-stove fire going and my feet up. It was perfect.. people I loved would come in and see me and say hi and warm up and then go out again to learn cool stuff.

The feast will go down in memory as some of the best food I've ever had at an SCA event. Not a single truly stellar thing in the bunch, just uniformly really good quality. Plus it was all hot and it was all plentiful.

Sunday I ended up at dinner with my father and stepmother. Dad took the layoff news well, he was all supportive and kissed my head and offered to do anything he could to help. Here's how you can help, Dad. Get me the shoes I want for my birthday so I don't have to give up running.. because my ass can't afford to drop that much on a pair of sneakers. Hop to it, Moneybags. It's not like you're going to be able to take it with you.

Trish (the stepmother) sent me on my way with all of the leftovers from dinner (way yummy) and three boxes worth of stuff. All of her household goods got delivered a month ago and she's going through it and the two of them are integrating. It's.. um.. jarring. Trish has my tastes.. lots of natural looks, painted china, slightly distressed paintjobs.. that kind of thing. She's a big Pier 1 girl.

My father on the other hand? He's a Scan man. Ikea isn't nordic enough for him. All of his furniture has recessed handles and no corners. I despise it. And do not make me go into his taste in art. It borders on the painful. It is openly mocked.

Now imagine the two of them living together. It's like.. wow. The solution seems to be for Trish to take a handwoven artisan cloth and throw it over every one of his atrocious pieces of furniture and then put cool candle holders and pieces of pottery on top of it. Good plan, Trish. Good plan.

So I get these boxes.. they're mostly old dishes and stuff but certainly things I can use. Some of it is awful cutesy things (the gingham painted cake plate comes to mind) and they'll be taking the short trip to the Goodwill. But on the up side, I now have LOTS of glasses.

I fucked off early yesterday to deal with the car stuff and spent the rest of the day at home cleaning and getting ready for my landlord walkthrough on Thursday. *le sigh*

The bright spots? Tonight is a new bellydancing class, new instructor. We'll see how she does. And tomorrow is writing with Cait. Which is going to involve sitting very very still. I love doing that with her.

How are you guys?

From: starfishchick
2004-11-16 09:32 am (UTC)
I had pie for breakfast. (Mostly because there was nothing else, but also? PIE.)
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 09:50 am (UTC)

I did not have pie for breakfast. But I'm having poundcake for lunch.. does that count?
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[User Picture]From: minervacat
2004-11-16 09:34 am (UTC)
I'm very tired and very busy and very poor.

Other than that, I'm okay. *clings*
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 09:51 am (UTC)
Yis. All of those. Feh. We deserve minions. Hot minions who will rub our feet and bring us mojitos and fan our brows.

Min. For my birthday fic? Can it be happy? I need happy. But I understand if your brain won't let you do that now. :)
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 09:52 am (UTC)
Possibly the best dietary decision ever made. Ever.



Which cider?
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[User Picture]From: maitheas
2004-11-16 09:55 am (UTC)
conference call Melly. going on right now. sucking my brain out my ears.

I want to eat lunch with you at Cheesecake Factory again. Only I'd like everybody to get to go this time.

I would also like a honking big slice of cheesecake...something either orangey or chocolatey or perhaps even both.

Also, I want salt. someone needs to fetch me a salt lick, like now.

Also also, soooo coooold Melly. when will my internal thermostat be right again? huh? *puts cold feetses on your leg*
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 09:56 am (UTC)
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[User Picture]From: kiltsandlollies
2004-11-16 10:04 am (UTC)
Melly Melly Melly your first paragraph and my brain are getting married, and we're all Pier One girls, too.

I love you. You give me hope, even when you don't feel it yourself.

You're pretty hot, too. Woof woof. <3
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 10:13 am (UTC)
I'm just so tired. And I don't know how much of that is actual sleep deprivation and how much of it is just avoidance. Blech. But I have a weekend free. If you look at my dayplanner for this weekend it's filled in. On Saturday it says "Fuck" and on Sunday it says "You".. which is how I'm responding to the idea of scheduling anything else. And then next week? Next week I get old.

How are you? How's the pile of metal?

You know what I love about you? I love how big your heart is. I love how much room is in there and how incredibly loyal you are. And I love how you don't think that a fundamentally snarky nature is incompatible with being a good person.

And I love how your butt looks in my jammie pants.

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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 10:33 am (UTC)

Re: This too shall pass

Oh I know.. I'm just tired of being stuck at mostly the same point in my life.. which is not nearly far enough along. :)

Free stuff is great.. oh, the other thing in the pile of stuff she sent me home with? Some gorgeous tribal jewelry just like the stuff we buy at Pennsic.. she bought it in the middle east on one her duty tours and just never did anything with it. So she just gave it to me. WOOO!!

Alex, can I go home now?
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[User Picture]From: make_your_move
2004-11-16 10:41 am (UTC)
Squeezes Melly like fresh lemons - I'm having the same kind of moment ... it's Tuesday - only Tuesday? And my, oh my, look at that -- if I'd of stayed married to bonehead (Jim) We'd be celebrating 19 years of marriage _today_ *falls over, thunks head*

Oh, and on VH1 - they had a little special on the 20th anniversary of "Feed the World" and how they're re-doing it for this holiday with all then new current, popular singers ...and I looked at the TV, which was obviously speaking Russian now, and thought - you can't be farking serious? I cannot, absolu-fucking-lutely cannot be 20 years ago.

When did I get to be this age, and how come I don't feel better, more grown up and smarter? I just feel ... *bleh*

You mentioned running away and petting alpacas at your house -- did one of those alpaca follow you home from Ecuador for me? ~hopes~
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 10:45 am (UTC)
Actually, nothing followed me home from Ecuador.. given the impending car repair and the news of the layoff I couldn't do the upfront payout even long enough to get them home and get paid back. I'm sorry. But I'll keep in touch with Brett and when it comes time for the next one I'll have him bring stuff home.

I don't feel like a grown-up, Mym. I don't feel mature or responsible. And I certainly don't feel 30. How did I get to be 30 and unable to buy myself a winter coat?

Jesus, that was remarkably solipsistic and melodramatic. Clearly I need a break. And some sunshine. Have you been outside? It's so pretty.
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From: magickalmolly
2004-11-16 10:41 am (UTC)
*sits you on my lap*

Hi gorgeous.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 10:42 am (UTC)
Hello there. *wriggles*
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[User Picture]From: ipso__facto
2004-11-16 11:17 am (UTC)
Melliest. I love you, full stop.

And if you want them, I offer my "Lost" tapes (all 8 episodes, 9 if you add this week) for a marathon during your weekend of no schedule. *snuggles you*

Nothing else to say. Just lots of leetle internerd hearts.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 12:12 pm (UTC)
Lala... I adore you. If it turns out my car is rilly rilly fixed what would you think about a road trip at some point?

Dude... tapes? Rilly?
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[User Picture]From: ravenscathedral
2004-11-16 12:02 pm (UTC)
Mellylicious Melly -- I don't know what to say.

Yay for your car and new dance teacher. yay for good food on weekend at SCA event. MOST DEFINITELY ya for sitting still with Cait.

Just bunches of honey nut cheerio yays for you. Hope your day gets better :)
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 12:13 pm (UTC)
It's getting gradually better.. and when the hormones even out it'll be better. :)
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[User Picture]From: lapsedagnostic
2004-11-16 12:12 pm (UTC)
Hey you hot almost thirty year old... for my thirtieth ('cause, you know, I was a complete slacker when I was thirty), I had a party in the basement I was living in ('cause, you know, I was seeing Mym then, and she wouldn't let me get old without a party...), and I ended up getting a slot car set for my birthday, so we ended up just using one piece of track and seeing how far we could make the car fly and land in one of the black stadium cups. This was much later in the evening.

Anyway, we're apparently having bad movie night saturday, so if you feel energetic, yer most welcome to come, drink frozen girly drinks, and hoot at the screen with us. Hella long drive, I know, but if'n you wanna, I would cherish your company.

And if'n you feeling like a real crazy girl, we're gonna try to go to the club Friday night. Just sayin'.

I, personally, am a hard core introvert, and can completely understand the "um, not this weekend" thang. Is _all_ cool.

But yer still a damn hottie.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-16 12:25 pm (UTC)
I'm going to say this because I know you will COMPLETELY understand... Both movie night and spectating at the club sound lovely... I haven't the faintest idea what I'm going to be up for yet. I'll let you know. :)

And I think the idea of a party that devolves into launching cars into beverage containers is exactly the kind of party I'd be aiming for. I had originally planned a drinking weekend in Pittsburgh.. but then again I had originally planned on being employed and having a while to wait on the car repairs too. Feh. Perhaps I get old next year?
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[User Picture]From: maitheas
2004-11-16 01:10 pm (UTC)
oh look. I'm back again. sorreh.

I generally avoid talking about my age to folks here, 'cause I'm old as dirt, but

Mellymine, I am about to turn 41. I am still not grown up, and I don't expect I'll ever be. I've decided that growing up isn't really the point. I hope that you won't really be upset about turning 30 next week, but if you are, please know that you can come and bitch about it to me any time, 'k?

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From: berreh
2004-11-16 02:45 pm (UTC)
How are you guys?


And a poorly condition it is.
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[User Picture]From: lilithfalling
2004-11-16 06:55 pm (UTC)
/screech brakes

Hold on a damn minute here. Okay, lets see....

"I'm in a bad mood, laid off, unmotivated etc"

Okay, check, got that. That sucks, but I talked to you on the phone and I have puke green hair, so you can just buck up little camper.


The part I don't understand, and you didnt mention on the phone. WTF is a "landlord walkthrough" exactley? Hmmmmm? When one of those happens here we usually call it breaking and entering. Does he want to make sure you dont have 12 mexicans living under your bed or that you and Matt arent skinning goats in the bathroom or what? What if you had some elaborate porno soundstage setup in your bedroom? Is that a violation of the lease agreement? What about a meth lab? Genetic testing? could you get in trouble for that? Does he want to make sure the curtains match the rug? That your video tapes are arranged by genre, or by director? That perhaps you have set up a paintball obstacle course, tipped the fridge over and are using as it as base? What?
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-17 03:11 am (UTC)
You are such a damn goofball sometimes. :) She wants to check the water filter, the carbon monoxide sensor, and the batteries in the smoke alarms.

Dork. :)
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From: ex_the0neru677
2004-11-16 07:55 pm (UTC)
*wave* hi. *scuffs toe of shoe on floor* we've not met, actually, so grain of salt and all that, but: hormones are SO god/gan/eru/whoever's idea of a practical joke on women. sounds like you have plenty of perfectly valid reasons to be unmotivated, dejected, angry, etc., even without the hormonal interference.

also you have an admirer in alabama, fwiw.

hope things start looking up soon, and that you feel better even sooner.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2004-11-17 01:23 pm (UTC)
I blame fate for all the reasons to be irritated and fed up, I blame hormones for wanting to eat my shoe if you put enough salt and sugar on it. ;)

I'm feeling remarkably better today, believe it or not (and thank you for the good wishes).. I needed that dance class last night and I needed hugs from Matt and I needed to actually get my resume finished (which I just did not half an hour ago). Once I actually banged that out I almost immediately got mail from my stepmother offering me all the inside job posting sites for her government office and volunteering to put in a good word for me.. which kinda restored my faith in a whole lot of stuff.

I see you commenting everywhere and I saw you pop up on the "friend of" list but I didn't want to be all "OMG WHO ARE YOU COME SAY HI TELL US FOUR THINGS ABOUT YOU!" and like that.. so.. I'm glad you commented.. hi. :)
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