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[Jan. 26th, 2005|01:31 pm]
Whole lotta labia.
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It is entirely possible that I would sell not only my left arm but also Matt's penis in exchange for a really good massage right now. Bits of me are tight that I didn't even know existed.

Yesterday's boring and healthy.. I ran again.. I'd been needing it. Even though I knew it was probably a little much my first week back. Still, a good 25min. run in, some of it at 5.0 but most around 4.4 or 4.6. Then 15min. on that stair thingy. Then some lower body weights.. not a lot.. inner and outter thigh, hamstrings, calves, and lower back.

My eating was.. well.. I had good intentions. It wasn't great.. and the fact that the scale was up this morning by a pound would indicate that. I got rid of the danger food in the house (by eating it, mostly, if you want the truth) and I packed nice safe food for meals today. Including my veggie juice. I think having something around that I can drink when an urge to eat hits me will help me out.. I don't really know how to explain why. My problems are both eating too often and eating the wrong things. I can only really conquer one of those at a time.. so surrounding myself with stuff I can eat whenever I want (like V8 and celery and hot tea) means I can get a handle on that and then focus on the cravings and whether or not I'm really hungry or if there's something else going on.

After a seriously bad moment last night I realized I could use some... centering. So I put in a yoga tape. It wasn't my usual yoga guy because I thought he might be a bit much for me last night (and my poor quads) so I did some stuff from YogaZone instead. Vaguely unsatisfying as it seemed to concentrate a lot on ab work. For once, I wasn't looking for that. I wanted to stretch my hips, relax my lower back, and get some length back in my quads. If i were smart I'd have gone to YogaJournal's Poses Site and come up with a routine myself. Or I'd have gone to the 7:30 BodyFlow class at the gym. But I didn't. There were other things that needed doing. The other things got done and I got some yoga in and..

Oh nevermind me. I'm just disheartened by how the weight keeps creeping up and how, in all honesty, I haven't been able to control my eating lately. I'm trying to keep in mind that I've been going to the gym or done some kind of exercise every day since.. um.. Thursday last? And that it's not all about the weight.. and that my muscles all still work. And I know all that. I do. I'm just ... yeah. I'm 10 pounds over my weight last August, I'm too big to fit into my favorite pants, and the regained weight seems to center on my upper arms and midsection.. which is making my dancing REAL fun, lemme tell you. I think I look like hot stuff. In reality? Not so much.

Anyway.. very tight this morning, very tired, considered not going but buckled down and went anyway. I did 20min. on the reclining bike, for which my back thanked me, and 13min on the elliptical before doing a round of upper body weights. I tried doing the barbell bicep curls with less extension as per listersgirl's suggestion but found my right elbow still popping. Friday I'll try the curls with dumbells as I think part of it might be the angle at which I've got my arm.

Good *lord* I'm a whiner. Nevermind me. I'd think it was PMS if I didn't know better.. so let's just chalk it up to the weather..

  • It turns out that thanks to frequent flyer miles from the last company I'll be able to make my trip to Cailfornia in May for $10. And the organizer offered to hold my workshop spots until I could pay her rather than have me pay her for the workshops as I had the money and rack up a $5 paypal fee each time.

  • Caitlin's going to maybe come too. If she has time. *fingers crossed*

  • And I think I'm going to take the rest of the miles and blow them on taking Matt somewhere cool for our third annviersary. Possibly the Grand Canyon. Planning it and going is likely the thing that will keep me from being a completely insufferable jealous cunt regarding Caitlin's upcoming trip to Scotland. I was always a bit wistful hearing her talk about these trips when I didn't have the money or vacation for them.. but working here I have both.. so I'm bound to be a bit petulant and that's not fair to her.

  • They're going to take out all of Matt's teeth (the 5 that need to come out) on the same day so he'll get general anesthesia and it'll be covered by the insurance. We were going to insist on it anyway since he's El Wussy when it comes to dentists but it's nice to not have to pay for it like we would have if it had been a smaller procedure.

  • I got a text from Ronnie this morning. :)

  • This is mine now.

  • Tonight is my date night and I'm going to go buy us a new version of Trivial Pursuit since we'd played the last one so much we knew all the questions. On the plus side to that, my brain is now WAY full.

Sometimes I'm just not a very nice person.

So.. if I found out there was a free intro Bikram Yoga class this weekend ... would it be worth going?

From: magickalmolly
2005-01-26 06:45 pm (UTC)
Way before I started WW, I bought this yoga tape - Yoga for weightloss. I like it a lot, because it has 4 different women doing the routine all at once, but working at different levels. Some of them use blocks or straps to modify the positions, for those of us who aren't willowy and maliable. Anyway. The routine's 45 minutes long, and I've never been able to get through the whole thing before, simply because holding Proud Warrior (or whatever - any of the standing poses) for as long as they do would make my feet ache. I've been too heavy.

I got all of the way through the routine last night.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2005-01-26 06:47 pm (UTC)
Do you know how amazing you are? The victories of your life are so inspiring. :)
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From: magickalmolly
2005-01-26 07:19 pm (UTC)
I'm bellydancing to Tom Jones. Shh. Tell no one.
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[User Picture]From: slightlytricky
2005-01-26 06:50 pm (UTC)
You're way nicer than me.

*pokes you*
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From: listersgirl
2005-01-26 06:51 pm (UTC)
Eep. I am very scared of Bikram Yoga. Too much heat makes me miserable and fainty. But I know many people love it, so if it's free, maybe it's worth trying.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2005-01-27 06:09 pm (UTC)
Turns out actually not free.. just cheap. I'm thinking it might be too far a haul too. I'm just not up for that much driving this weekend.. but we'll see :)

There will be yoga this weekend for sure, because man, my sides are uber tight.

I have to admit, I like the idea of the heated room.. but that might just be because it's 14F outside right now.

How goes the move?
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From: listersgirl
2005-01-27 06:35 pm (UTC)
Well, there are boxes, some of which even have stuff in them. :D

And last night we lugged the last of my former roommate's stuff out to a friend's house, so that's one less thing I have to deal with.

Amazingly enough, though, no-one is claiming my FREE computer desk. I want someone to come take it away, so that I don't have to deal with it!
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[User Picture]From: wilfulcait
2005-01-26 07:01 pm (UTC)
I can make a filter for talking about that trip so you don't have to have your nose rubbed in it, if you want.

And Grand Canyon... wow. I've never managed to be there for more than about three hours, because it was always a flying visit wedged into the middle of a business trip. But it's stunning, and v v v big. One of my clients has done trips down the length of it (rafts) and down into it (donkeys, I think?) and says it's even more stunning from inside than from the rim.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2005-01-27 06:11 pm (UTC)
Don't worry about the filter.. You shouldn't have to do that just because I'm cranky. ;)

I think I might be able to con Matt into this (not like he's going to need much convincing) if I told him there might be time *in* it.

What time will you be at the station tonight?
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[User Picture]From: wilfulcait
2005-01-27 06:52 pm (UTC)
Probably 6:30. I should be able to leave here a little before 6.

I think you and Matt should do the donkey tour. And there should be pictures.
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[User Picture]From: maitheas
2005-01-26 07:08 pm (UTC)
Melly. You are a nice person. You don't have to be perky, cheery all the time, you know.

And and and HEE! I was saving your new number in my cell phone directory while riding on the bus this morning, and I thought, "Melly needs a text message with kishy faces in it," and so I sent you one.

*even more kishy faces!*
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2005-01-27 06:11 pm (UTC)
You don't have to be perky, cheery all the time, you know.

I know.. I had actually meant to say that I'm not a very *good* person. Because that's closer to it. ANyway.. today is better. And I'm totally saving that message for a long time. :)

*kissy face*
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[User Picture]From: ipso__facto
2005-01-26 09:40 pm (UTC)
a) Nobody is nice all the time, not even Big Bird. Don't beat yourself up about whatever it is. *hugs*

b) Losing weight and staying in shape is HARD and if we didn't have setbacks and trouble every now and then it wouldn't really be a challenge and you wouldn't get as much from it, imho. Doesn't mean it doesn't suck and you don't get to be upset about it (cause you DO), but it's not the end of the world, you know? It just is. And I believe in you. <33

c) Oooh, Bikram Yoga! THAT would be cool. Or, if you're ever interested, you're welcome to come try my Vishwayatan Yoga course in G'belt (either Tuesdays at 6pm or Saturdays at 10am) with me, and I could probably slide you into my gym for free either before or after. Just sayin'. :)

d) Have I mentioned in this comment that I love you? That should have been a. *kisses your nose*
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2005-01-27 06:16 pm (UTC)
a) I beat myself up plenty.. but then I sat down and figured out what the real problem was, not just the symptoms, and it comes down to feeling over-commited, over-worked, under-appreciated, and exhausted. So I canceled the tentative plans with my mother that I had for the weekend, I penciled in some non-time-specific dancing and maybe some yoga. I need to be good to me for a bit.. as horribly selfish as that sounds. :)

b) I just get so discouraged when the initial results don't come as fast as I want them to. Like somehow one good day of eating or three good days of exercise is supposed to be all it takes to get back to where I was in October. I had to focus on the other things.. the increased energy, the muscle control, etc. so I stopped getting so caught up in numbers. Of course I'm wearing my fat pants today.. so that poked a bunch of holes in my armor.. but it'll get better eventually. ;)

c) Wanna come? Also, if I have weeks off this semester (because I'm about to start a college class on Tuesday nights) I'm totally taking you up on that offer.

d) I love your smile almost as much as I love your hugs .. both of which pale in comparison to how much I love your brain and your heart.
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[User Picture]From: orlacarey
2005-01-26 10:11 pm (UTC)
a) I think it is very cool that you are belly dancing. I know I often miss it. Someday I'll manage to get back to dancing. Is the class you are going to with Fat Chance? I know when I was dancing Bambi used to rave over them and had all of their videos.

b) Did I mention I love your icon? Some days I feel like that.
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[User Picture]From: mellyflori
2005-01-27 06:22 pm (UTC)
a) The class I'm going to is actually one of a series of classes I'm taking at TribalFest5 (http://www.blacksheepbellydance.com/tf5/index.html) I'm taking everything from the Intermediate Fusion class to the Smooth Transitions for Drum Solos and a bunch of stuff in between. Between 6 and 8 hours of dancing on Thursday and Friday and about 4 hours on Saturday. I'm so excited I could about pee myself. :) Sadly, I'm missing the FCBD class because it's Sunday. HOwever, they're teaching that exact same class in a series of workshops including one in DC on the 29th of July. (just in time for Pennsic!)

b) I needed a "this day sucks" icon.. this one was perfect. I put the text on because.. yeah. :)
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