||[Mar. 16th, 2005|12:53 pm]
Whole lotta labia.
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|||||Great Big Sea - A Boat Like Gideon Brown||]|
Yahoo has a Great Big Sea launchcast station. It's Great Big Sea and other similar artists. I just heard "I's the by" right after "Brian Wilson." It's possible I may now pass out.
It's going fine. I've been making some monumentally harmful and bad decisions when it comes to my food lately. I really don't want to talk about them but.. just trust me. Anyway. I've decided to take the Sam Donovan approach. I can't make a change for life.. but I can make a change for today. Tomorrow's still up in the air.. but today I can handle. That being said, yesterday I had a perfectly on-program day. Woefully lacking in vegetables but with all the necessary points and water and exercise. My official weigh-in had me up half a pound but since that was last week, and not today, I've decided not to fret about it. I'm not fretting about next week either. I'm just working on today.
I got up and went to the gym but given how late I was I only got about half an hour of elliptical in before I had to bail. I'll do drills at lunch and I'm doing maybe yoga tonight. I could use that. I have to find a studio with good hours but .. yeah.. if nothing else I'll do some in the living room when I get home. After that I'm watching tv and going to bed early. Dammit.
Monday night for our last Tribal class the beginners did a lot of lead/follow stuff and I'm feeling really quite confident in my skills on that. I'm ok with finding the beat in those and cueing well. For the intermediate class we started with my instructor waxing emotional about being a dancer. Including one of my guilty pleasures, the quote "If you can walk, you can dance. If you can talk, you can sing." (which makes it's best appearance in The Push Star's "Minnesota"). And then she had us turn to the people next to us (and already this is going downhill because those who know me best know I hate this part. HATE having to interact in classes. Which might be a problem.. but we'll deal with it later) and ask "Are you a dancer?" and the answer should be "Yes I am."
Then she turned out the lights and put on some music and for half the song we were supposed to just let it move us and then in the last half we were to try and use the moves we'd learned in the class. I felt.. ok with it. Really.. ok. I didn't feel like I looked awful in the movements. And it was nice to have appropriate music and some time to just zone out with it. We're off until mid-May now but their troupe-mate said I could drop-in with her class if I wanted and Sara cleared me to just take the intermediate classes come May. I'd suggest it to Cait but it's clear up in Baltimore and starts at 6:30. So that's a no-go. I'll do the ones I can, though, and keep my hand in at home. I keep thinking I should go back to the first class up in Towson but every time I think about how awkward and weird that class is it just makes my skin crawl. Maybe if I get desperate in mid April or something.
So.. the state of play is that I'm feeling better. And that I know I can take the moves I've been given and put them to music. I'd still like to learn some nice combos and layering but there are four months of workshops coming up to deal with that. I've decided for my lunch sessions I'm going to take the moves I know and put them in an Excel spreadsheet and then shuffle them. Do them in different orders.. see how they work. I need music though.. hmm..
Anyway. Am I a good dancer? No, not particularly. Am I a pleasing dancer to watch? How should I know, I'm not watching me. Am I a skilled and talented dancer? No, a world of no. But am I a dancer? Yes. I am.
Health class was last night and I scored well on my exam and then listened to an hour and a half of lecturing about addictive personalities. Bitch, please. I got to chat with Lizzies who I adore more than ever now, if that were possible. And then coming in this morning I found out that Richard Thompson is coming to town. Much happiness. (and a need to listen to "Persuasion" over and over again)
Tonight it's yoga and after yoga it's Firefly and sleeping. I might miss Matt a little bit, but you'll never hear that from me.
How are you guys?