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Whole lotta labia.

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[May. 3rd, 2007|10:34 am]
Whole lotta labia.
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Yesterday I woke up next to my husband, walked him out, went to work, took a long lunch at Cait's place and patted her on the head a lot. I kissed her cheek as I left and said "I love you." She said "I know."

This morning I woke up in a world that doesn't have Caitlin in it.

I am good with words, and there should be good ones for this. And someday, maybe soon, I'll write about what she meant and how these last couple of days went and the ways my life would be poorer without having known her, though there are too many to count. I'll also be able to thank you better for being here for me through this whole thing, it helped me have the strength and emotional reserves to be there for her. But for today? Today all I've got is this:

The universe is a right fucking cunt and I'm angry and sad and I want my best friend back and I don't want my baby to not know her. And I'm glad that I could kiss her head and hold her hand and stand with Mym when the van drove her down the driveway.

But mostly the cunt thing.
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[User Picture]From: maitheas
2007-05-03 02:50 pm (UTC)
I love you.

And just for today, I agree with you about the cunt thing.
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[User Picture]From: magickalmolly
2007-05-03 03:09 pm (UTC)
I love you, Melly.
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[User Picture]From: berreh
2007-05-03 03:12 pm (UTC)
We're all here with you, Mel.
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[User Picture]From: ebullientjenn
2007-05-03 03:20 pm (UTC)
Really there are no good words, except the ones she said which keep coming back to me.

See you soon.
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[User Picture]From: traveller
2007-05-03 03:20 pm (UTC)
did chellies pass on the love i sent last night? because i didn't want to intrude, but i wanted you to have it. so here, here is more. and more and more, because even though i didn't know cait, i know what she meant to you, and for that she was precious to me.
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-05-03 06:20 pm (UTC)
i'm sorry, cee. i sent her another email this morning and it completely slipped my mind.
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[User Picture]From: traveller
2007-05-03 06:49 pm (UTC)
as luck would have it, i don't think that I LOVE YOU MELLY can be overstated.
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[User Picture]From: kiltsandlollies
2007-05-03 03:21 pm (UTC)
So much love for all of you; pass it on when you can but keep a great deal for yourself.
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[User Picture]From: cindyjade
2007-05-03 03:29 pm (UTC)
*holds you close*

I love you Melly.
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[User Picture]From: fitofpique
2007-05-03 03:32 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, Melly.
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[User Picture]From: kfitzwarin
2007-05-03 03:48 pm (UTC)
Love you, sweetness.
*hug*

And with you on the cunt thing.
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[User Picture]From: minervacat
2007-05-03 04:16 pm (UTC)
i love you, mellies.
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[User Picture]From: listersgirl
2007-05-03 04:37 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, Melly. Take care of yourself.
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[User Picture]From: marginalia
2007-05-03 05:00 pm (UTC)
you're all i can think of today, sweetie. so much love.
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[User Picture]From: calvin_would
2007-05-03 05:08 pm (UTC)
*holds tight*
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[User Picture]From: the0neru
2007-05-03 05:53 pm (UTC)
lots of love and prayers to all of you, and an extra hug for you.
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[User Picture]From: ainsley
2007-05-03 06:05 pm (UTC)
Much, much love.
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[User Picture]From: mieszko
2007-05-03 10:28 pm (UTC)
Love you, I'm sorry, huggs
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[User Picture]From: alex_wench
2007-05-03 10:55 pm (UTC)
oh baby...

i love you so

see you soon..
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[User Picture]From: slightlytricky
2007-05-04 12:09 am (UTC)
I told the story about the crystals curing that girls sprained ankle today. God, that's just a great story. I'm going to tell it to Vienne one day, tell her about this amazing lady I know and her friend Cait, who made the world a great place to be in.
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[User Picture]From: wizardglick
2007-05-04 01:11 am (UTC)

Hey, I remember that !

Wasn't just crystals, it was crystals and _paper towels_.
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[User Picture]From: slightlytricky
2007-05-04 01:15 am (UTC)
*grins* It's on my 'favorite stories of Melly and Cait' list. It's a very long list.
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[User Picture]From: wizardglick
2007-05-04 04:17 am (UTC)
Truth
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[User Picture]From: shaenie
2007-05-04 01:19 am (UTC)
*holds you forever* I love you, dearheart.
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From: starfishchick
2007-05-04 02:43 am (UTC)
I am so sorry, Melly. And you're right, this fucking sucks. But I am sorry.

love,
Steph
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[User Picture]From: photographerdee
2007-05-04 11:34 pm (UTC)

Paddy

I couldn't have made it through the death of my sister without you guys. I'm so glad I got to feel all the love you have for Paddy. She was blessed to have you. She'll be watching over that sweet baby. Love you D.
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-05-05 11:08 pm (UTC)

from Troy and Laurie

Matt called us earlier this week. ( and most of the rest of the champagne brunch bunch....) We have been thinking hugs to you (all) and Johanna. It is a hard thing to bear.

laurie/eleri, writing for both herself and Troy/Philip
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-05-07 02:37 am (UTC)
<------Rachel who forgots her password.

:(

I loved Cait, she thought I was smart.

Call me if you needs anything, and I'll see you guys at war practice.
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